Change
I feel a change coming on. I can’t say where it stems from, or if it’s coming on its own or something I will initiate. It’s just a feeling I guess.
I looked in the mirror today and can see the signs of aging. There have been little snips of that here and there over the last year or so, but today I saw it all, at once, and didn’t like it.
Perhaps the change that is coming is to focus more on myself? Diet (not to go on, but to have a healthier one), exercise, skin care. Maybe to give myself enough quality time to shave my legs. Why do I sit around, watch TV, play online, and then complain about having no time for those other things? Ironic really, to sit here and say that while blogging…
Maybe the change is merely in the weather, as summer leaves and fall approaches?
Maybe it’s that I was asked to think about a new position at work that I would love and find personal AND professional satisfaction in? Though it would require more days/week, less flexibility, and less money.
Or maybe it’s not that it’s change coming at all, but a realization that this is who I am, and who I will always be. Now, I don’t mean this in a bad way, but in a way that brings me to accepting myself vs. looking for all the things I wish I could change but are in fact, not that important and have probably spent too much timing stressing about.
I do still see changes I want to make, I think everyone does. But still, this feeling… Only time will tell I guess.
In the end though, perhaps it’s just mercury in retrograde, and it will all pass.
